I moved into my yellow brick house in 2010, and since day 1, I have hated the yellow and green main bathroom. In recent years, I have seen some serious water damage coming from my bathroom in my kitchen ceiling. In one corner of my kitchen, you can see obvious water damage to the drop ceiling tile that looked like it came from the toilet.

After many years and aggressively saving what I could, my bathroom is finally being remodeled. Squeeeeeee. I hired a contractor that my friend, Amy, had hired and recommended. I was so nervous about hiring any contractor, especially after two of my friends had a contractor horror story, resulting in losing $17 grand. So when a friend recommended a contractor and his price was reasonable, I jumped on it.

I’ve been dreaming about and talking for years about renovating my bathroom, and now it’s currently happening. My nerves are shot to hell due to happy excitement and anxious excitement. This is going to cost so much money BUT I’m going to have a waterproof bathroom in an aesthetic that I actually like. I will be able to take a shower without worrying about the ceiling in my kitchen collapsing.

This new bathroom also means that friends can visit me and actually stay with me! Last time my best friend was in town, I ended up paying for her to stay in a nearby hotel room instead of staying with me. I didn’t want to subject her to my bathroom, plus I didn’t have a functioning spare room for her either. Thanks to my wonderful boyfriend, he fixed the broken bed in the spare room and now there’s a place for someone else to sleep here!

I wonder what my stress and anxiety levels will feel like when the renovation is 100 percent done. Ever since my stage 4 diagnosis, I have been worried about what is going to happen when I can no longer work. If I had to sell my house and move somewhere, I knew my awful bathroom and kitchen would screw me over. Now, I’ll just have my kitchen as the main project to do next.

When all of this is done, will I finally be able to relax?

Probably not. Haha.